Where have you been?

I started this post several weeks ago...and just could not talk! I felt so shut down...and if you can believe me...didn't want to see anyone. But, someone text me on facebook and said..."how are you? have I missed one of your posts?" OMG...did that ever give me a boost. So today...I finish this entry. Where have you been????

Feb 13, 2015
 
Seventh Heaven: a state of extreme happiness and joy

I can not believe that I can say I am in an extreme state of joy...but I can! My 7th treatment ended Friday, February 13th. It has now been almost a week and I have not had many side effects! Thank you God!

Here are SEVEN things that have occurred since my last treatment:
1.  I had my blood count checked today...I did not have to have a nupregin shot!!!
2.  I met two women who each were having their first treatment today. I was able to pray with them and encourage them in the fight. Please add Rebecca and Joyce to your list!
3.  I attended a sweet baby shower for my daughter-in-law who is expecting my first granddaughter.
4.  I will attend a baby shower for Charles' youngest son's baby boy!!! Both babies are due in early March.
5.  My mouth has finally taken a beating from the chemo. Ulcers and burned feeling all in my mouth. 
6.  Charles is going to wellness center everyday and has lost 17 pounds...yes in one week!
7. And number seven...I finally did it! I purchased me a wig!

This journey is one filled with ups and downs. One morning as I was crying on Charles' shoulder about the condition of my hair, how I would like to feel like me again, and how my mouth hurts when I eat...He prayed the sweetest prayer. He said, "O Lord, we just need to touch the hem of your garment." I am so grateful that I have a husband who will believe with me in my healing. 

Well today is March the 2nd!!! A lot has happened since treatment Seven! I have finished Treatment Eight!!!

Here are eight things that have happened:

1. February 24 - Jessica and Brian had a little boy...Cooper Michael Bowen
2. February 27 - Amy and Brandon had a little girl...Maisy Lilith Sesser
YES...two grandchildren born in one week. All are well and doing great.
3. Had two snow days - we had 8 inches of snow. I did not feel too great. I was in the middle of Treatment Eight.
4. March Came!!!
5. My boss decorated my office and the RCU workplace with blue ribbons to signify March - Colon Cancer Awareness Month
6. I have had several friends email me to say they had their colonoscopy and all is well!!!
7. I hit a deer 5 minutes from home in Charles' truck. He has not been able to go to Wellness Center so I went with him last night and walked the treadmill.
8. Charlie Williams, a colon cancer peep is having his last treatment today!!! Raise a prayer of thanksgiving.

I haven't missed much work since 8! I have felt rather good. Next Wednesday will begin Treatment 9!

Kacy, my daughter sent me an article...What not to say to someone who has cancer. She immediately apologized "mom, I'm sorry...I have said so many of these things." Well it's for sure I have never thought about it...but it did ring true with me...some of the reponses.

You can read the authors replies...but I decided to share mine!
http://www.buzzfeed.com/louisemcsharry/things-not-to-say-to-someone-who-has-cancer-1bqqo?bffb&utm_term=4ldqpgp#.epQXj3Xr2 

1. “That’s a good cancer to have.” - OMG I'm Guilty!! I said this to me and anyone who would listen. I did read that about Colon Cancer...but now I realize so many have lost their lives to the "good cancer."

2. “Cancer isn’t as hard as it used to be.” - GOSH How hard was it before????

3. “I’ve always wanted to shave my head.” - UHHH I have never wanted to do that. And everyday when I look in the mirror and see my wispy hair, I frown!

4. “You look like Natalie Portman in V for Vendetta!” - I guess don't ever compare someone to one who is bald!!!

5. “We didn’t think you’d be up for it.” - Don't be sympathetic in this negative way. Thank goodness most of those around me don't allow me to sit and stew. They are forever encouraging me to go and do! They let me tell them if I just don't feel up to it.

6. “You’re so brave.” - THIS IS THE ONE I HATE!!! I didn't volunteer for this...so bravery doesn't have a place. If there was one statement I would encourage you to delete is this one!!

7. “Have you tried…?” I want a fix..and answer, but often when other remedies are suggested other than what my doctor is prescribing, it makes me feel uneasy and as if I am doing the wrong thing. I have to have faith in my doctor to make it through.

8. “If anyone can beat this, you can.” - of course this one stops me in my tracks...because my sister Judy couldn't beat it and my brother Bobby couldn't beat it...why should I feel so sure??? I saw them fight hard.

9. “Remember, there’s always someone worse off than you.” - this one I can live with!!! Because yes, when I arrive at Cancer Care for my treatment I see first hand that there are many worse than me. Please pray!

10. “I know how you feel.” - I have had comfort from those who have walked the Cancer Trail before me to hear this from them. So...if you are a Cancer Survivor...go see, text, email, call, visit those who are facing it now. Hearing someone else share their journey can be uplifting!

11. “At least you’ll have loads of free time now.”  - hmmm so grateful I have been able to work during this time. I know that it is not true for all. It is no holiday!! Don't think that the "free" time equals walking on the beach or laying in a hammock on the back porch!

12. “Congratulations! You’re done!” - Scariest of all. As I approach April 27th - my if nothing goes wrong end date - I wonder what comes after??? Will it be all???

So what should you say?

"Do you need me to go to Chemo with you?"

"I'm bringing you dinner for your family."

"I'm sorry you are going through this."

"Don't give up!"

 And finally - do say something...even if it is wrong!!!

 

I'm so glad that I finished this post. I felt like I was in rebellion! LOL  

Thank you for taking time to read my posts. Remember...listen to your body. Even if the doctor makes you feel stupid for coming in...that is a great outcome!

And I am always reminded...

When you go through deep waters, I will be with you! Isaiah 43:2